i had hoped to be doing better time things this week. it’s one of the the sources of stress for both me and loved ones of mine. but alas, i haven’t managed it yet. it took me until gone 11:30 to start my workday. and that pushes everything that isn’t work back and makes it all worse. and this happens everyday. my Goddess and i started a good conversation about this last night....

my Goddess is having me back as her worshipful submissive and it’s making me very happy. i’ve got good structure thought out about how to be good and positive and not annoying for her in this way. it gives me real meaning. i touched myself 4 or 5 times today. lying on my back, with lube, strokes back and forth with my fingers on the underside of my anatomical cock which felt incredible....

sometimes it’s ramblings, sometimes it’s just posts about what i’ve been up to. i’ll have a rule that i must record everything here.

i tried what i mentioned above; i put pointed drawing pins inwards along the length of the front of the inner cafe, taped them in place and then locked the outer cage back over the top. when i wasn’t hard, i couldn’t really feel them but when i got hard they were painful, varying in intensity. it was too painful to grind. so that’s honestly just perfect. i’m really pleased....

been thinking a lot about spikes in the cage that hurt when i get hard. i first started thinking about them because i wanted it to hurt when i was grinding which would def apply but making it hurt anytime i get turned on would be idea at lots of times, i think. maybe i’ll go into that sometime in a note. anyway, i did some initial experimenting with poking some cocktail sticks through the cage and taping them in place which worked pretty well tbh....